I was mad at everything that happened to me as our relationship crumbled. I couldn’t stop it and that’s why I was so mad. I don’t want to hurt her, I do love her dearly. I’m not entitled to an apology but I feel like I want one. I’ve let it go and all I’ve tried to do is improve upon myself for the last month.
She replied to me shortly after this post. Monday I told her I went rock climbing because that’s something we did together. She still has a membership to the place we went together. I don’t. I said I went somewhere else with a friend to rock climb. I told her I would talk to her later. I didn’t want to prolong this first time we’ve talked.
The second time (Friday) I told her I went to a karaoke place. She’s always wanted to go to one so I told her a little about it, made a joke about how bad my singing was even though I’m proud of it. I told her my school might be going on strike this Monday. She didn’t respond. Probably because I didn’t ask her a follow up.
Today, I pretended to forget the name of a restaurant her and I went to. She told me. I asked her if she was going to a local fall event in her city. She said she didn’t know what it was. I told her about it, and said I was really surprised she wasn’t going. She said she’s never heard of it lol. I said I was going down, maybe I would see her there. I wasn’t actually inviting her nor asking her to go with me I was just being friendly. She said probably not. I said no worries, thanks for the information about the restaurant we’ll talk soon.
I’m trying to contact her everyday. From here on out. I have a couple ideas here and there over the next couple days to spark a conversation. Examples.. Hey i saw this movie the other day, you should go see it. I know you would like it. Hey i was at X and I thought I saw you. You looked great Her reply.. no i wasn’t there. My reply, oh well the last time we were there everyone was looking at you. And to meet up I would use something like I have an assignment due this week ( I have 4) and I was hoping you could help me by looking it over for me. (shes a really big school nerd)
Maybe you could help me with some general strategy? I’ve talked to her 3 different times. All i’m trying to do is get her talking. Get myself in her thoughts. Anything you could suggest would be extremely helpful.