feeling hopeless and confused

@kaila Very true. When you have your best friend take advantage of you after a break up, you lose your worth and value. He hasn’t upheld mine like I upheld his. So if course that’s what I want. I guess I don’t know what I want.

@Mj I feel like I have made a very big mistake.

@Mj I just have to figure everything out. I am so tired of having my self worth put down because of him. Of course I want him to see my worth. How else are you supposed to possibly have a future with someone if they don’t see your worth? It is all just a complicated situation. I’m just tired.

Leave it at that ellie. When texting him keep to a similar word count!

hey kaila and ellie, I just unintentionally saw a pic of my ex and the guy… guess they’re getting serious :/

Hi DIvJUN. I decided to leave so I could focus on me. I’m happy that getting your ex back was the right decision for you. I realized the guy I use to want was a cold hearted thing that didn’t deserve my time anyway. I learned the hard way that he’s a buster and Not a Man at all for not seeing how I was doing. I could have broken an arm or something! I know I didn’t follow no contact long enough but we all are different people and have to decide what’s best for us. AFter I sent my letter to him informing him of my car accident on the 6th I got absolutley nothing. He still owes me money. It was a long distance relationship so I have no control on forcing him to pay me back 100.00 for. airfare. But anyway I have gone on 2 dates recently and. I’ve changed the way I eat. I went from weighing 165.6 to. 152.8 a 12.8ounces loss through diet and exercise. I make myself work out for 20 minutes everyday whether I want to or not. So if I end up doing more then that’s great. A lot of times with this new commitment I end up working out longer.

hi guys i need some help! its really long but please read it
My ex has recently asked the other girl to be his girlfriend and he posted a picture on instagram. A week ago, before i left on a family trip i went to his house and his family was there. He told them in front of me that he wasn’t going to screw this chance. That he wanted to get back together with me. 3 days after i leave she posts a pic of them together. I got really angry and sad that i wrote to him (i wasn’t supposed to do this but i reacted that way) he told me he was tired of everything. Then my uncle and my brother took my phone told him to leave me alone and blocked him from everything. A day later he asks this girl to be his girlfriend..

He has always been a baby that when he doesn’t get what he wants he does something radical, but it hurts. His family still loves me, they haven’t contacted me yet but i know they’ll be pissed once they find out.

Im really sad because i really thought we would get back together this time. He told me he never wanted me to leve him, no matter what. I’ve believed everything he’s told me but nobody else does. Everyone says he’s manipulating me.

Im really confused because we were together for 3 years, i know him and i know that he loved me at some point, but why is he making me suffer so much. He knows everything he does hurts me and he still does it. Im trying to forget about him and move on but its hard. Everything reminds me of him and i wonder all the time if he’ll ever come back.

I started NC again and i don’t plan on breaking it. I know i can do it because i did it the other time. Its twice the betrayal this time and it hurts like hell. Everyone says he doesn’t care about me at all, but i know he’s acting radical because somethings going on. His new gf is not his type and she has avery bad reputation that is ruining his (he has a big ego and doesn’t like when people talk bad about him).

I don’t know what to do anymore. I wanted to write to his grandma (he lives with his grandparents) but that would come out wrong because he would get pissed.

He told me in many of our conversations that he is having a lot of problems lately. He said he’s smoking pot and that he’s been spending a lot of money. He told me drunk that he wanted to get back together with me. BUT HE NEVER LET GO OF THE OTHER GIRL. So i was always harsh because of that.

I feel like I was the one who pushed him away, nagging at him all the time and fighting because of every picture she posted. He was MY boyfriend for 3 years and its difficult to understand that he isn’t my boyfriend now. He told me something but then his actions did the total oposite, so yes i got pissed a lot.

I’ve been crying since monday and it doesn’t seem to stop. I just don’t want the spark that’s between us and all the memories to disappear. This time he took everything to the next level. If he really loved her he wouldn’t have cheated on her with me and dedicated me all these songs and called me drunk every other day.

somethings wrong and i can’t seem to figure it out. Im scared she’ll get pregnant just to grab him forever. (that happened to his dad, may he rest in peace) and the story sometimes repeats itself.

I know time is everything i have right now. That i have to move on and keep going. I won’t write to any of his friends or family members and i’ll just make him wonder what im doing at all times. I hope we can be together someday in the future again. I believe he is the one for he (everyone else says he isn’t. that he’s very immature and selfish and a pathological liar).

@lolita He may love you (both doubt he does), but if he is playing these childish games, then let him go for now. He is no longer acting like a man and it is hurting you. You do not deserve this kind of treatment. You’re going through the grief cycle right now. Take as much time as you can to cry it out and feel sorry for yourself, then as soon as you start to feel better, take that moment and become better. You do not need his negligence in your life anymore.