Messing up after NC..give up?

2 year relationship. She ended it, no begging after, just simply went straight into NC. I had seen it coming for a minute and was studying this stuff to “get ahead.”

I wont go on with too many details but we’re 20 days into NC and she texted out of the blue about exchanging our stuff that we have.

Rather than it being a simple check up or okay we can make something work soon, we both turned it into a 4 hour text maranton. I knew better. I feel I wasn’t ready and would give in, but neither of us stopped it.

The jist of what happened and am I done or do I need to do NC again and disappear next time she needs me?

Where it started to go wrong and how it spiraled without me knowing it but continuing it…

She tells me she has problems with her health, kinda scary but she’s going to be fine, but it is a process. Now I mentioned why couldn’t you let me know..she said it wasn’t right and then proceeds to tell me she wants the best for me and hopes I find what I’m looking for, sorry the way we ended etc…

From there, and for the next hours I talked how I’m better (going to gym, started new job, looking for more opportunities, started therapy, getting out of my friends circle that was bad news…)

She tells me she’s seeing someone else (older guy with kids, which makes me think it’s a rebound-I just think she wants older to see about it but i can’t see her being like that forever, esp cause she hates kids)

She told me that she was sorry for dragging our stuff on when she thought it was over for a while. She lied to both of us.

I remain calm and agree with both, show a little mature support for her relationship and hope everything else works out.

We both mentioned the time has been hard not contacting each other, we weren’t trying to Be mean. Some reason we both knew we couldn’t talk. I wish she did thou to let me know she was hurt cause I’m always going to care and support her. Even if we don’t get back together. I hope she respects the same for me.

So without too many details, did I show my true colors of me still being available? I didn’t say hey come back im better now for us blah blah. I was just trying to show that I am fine and getting better for myself….But Should i cut the conversation shorter? Not told her everything about me/her? And now do I have to restart NC or am I better off done?

I know the text thread doesn’t bring her back right away, I know it’s a process. I just feel I rushed things when she could be starting to text me again this week. Instead she knows I’m still here and doesn’t have anything else to question.

FML