Months no contact and absolutely dying inside.

I don’t know if this is the right section, I don’t even know what I’m doing.. the last 8 months have been such a blur.

I’ve gone months no contact with my ex and I’m truly hurting, we’ve been split for 8 months.. she’s currently back with her first love.. they have a child together. I tried to win her back for a few months Before I came across this website.

I followed no contact and we’ve spoke briefly once in the last 4 months.

I now understand I’m never getting her back, not anytime soon. She moved on & I miss her so much every single day. Every time someone mentions her and her boyfriend to me I burst into tears.

Every time I see a picture or even someone I know mentions her name I burst into tears.

I thought we would last forever, she’s the love of my life & I hate feeling like this..

I’ve been with other girls, trying to find a rebound or to help me move on but it just doesn’t work, I feel sick with guilt every time and i constantly think about her afterwards and even during sex..

What the hell is wrong with me? Will I ever get over her?

I need advice